ulfr

am needing some coping stratergies the self injury eating disorder and drink and drugs makes me ill and fight with my husband
i want to change that am going to meetings but av only been to one got a starter chip because i started again after being stupid using things that are bad for me
i dont have much just sitting here on a saturday night drinking decaff coffee when am wanting to have drink or drugs took my medication for tonight not so good at the moment PTSD and crap my medication helps that and its given to me by my dr wanting other drugs on top of that dangerous i'll end up killing myself so i need way to cope
any ideas dont mind what it is ill try anything anything to stop me feeling so crap
My husband is in the next room watching zombies while my nieces who arent old enough to watch it are sitting on there phones not talking i cant go and watch the zombies as they trigger me to self injure because its too graphic for me no ones talking feel like crap
anyone ?