Hi Wildflower, I personally don’t know what good could come from leaving.
Also in my humble experience people who really want to leave a place, group, especially a forum etc do exactly that, they just leave.
They may not necessarily announce their leaving if the decision has been made.
I hope you take my last comment the right way and with the good intention that it is meant.
What I mean by it is that deep down you have the inner knowledge that this is most likely your AV talking and trying to do your thinking, sabotaging your chances.
Deep down you also know it’s probably best you stay hence your initial post.
Hang in there and don’t let the bandit win.