It doesn't **** us off, wildflower.
I think this is all your mind playing tricks on you.
I know when I was drinking I was pretty sure I knew what other people were thinking. It's one of the cruel jokes alcohol plays on us - it tried to make me afraid of everyone and feel less than.
Then other times I felt like I was better than everyone.
Someone in an AA meeting said, "I can go from Emperor to flea in two seconds flat." That was me, too. Roller coaster of delusions.