Hi and welcome Rupert
I can only imagine thats hard to deal with - but many members here have dealt with drinking spouses etc and stayed sober so it s not a deal breaker.
I think it's vital to have sober support and use it though.
Maybe even a recovery action plan?
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ery-plans.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)
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