Old 12-28-2017, 04:28 AM
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Gilmer
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Thank you for the wonderful opener, Dee! . So much to jump off of there!

I think this year I need to learn to cut the same slack to myself that I do to others. In the old days I wasn’t capable of much, so I was constantly told I was useless and not pulling my weight.

When I sobered up, I became more willing and able to contribute.

Oddly, seeing such an improvement told me that I truly must have been useless all my life. Even though I am no longer getting negative performance reviews from external sources, I have picked up the chorus in my own heart: you’d better damn well measure up, because otherwise you’re worthless!

I believe that we’ve all got innate worth. Never do I judge others as worthless!

But I always, always feel like I’m one inch away from being deservedly pushed off a cliff.

Maybe it’s just a weird transmutation of the “extraordinary worm” syndrome.

But anyway, I need to just chill out in the upcoming year and be kind to myself.
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