tiredwoman I don't want to bombard you with anything whilst you're delicate but this is an absolutely perfect example of "if only" for you to look back on tomorrow when I sincerely hope you come back to start again.
When you ask for help here help DOES come. Just give it a little while please. Promise yourself that and I promise you that the support is there. We genuinely care.
One thing I struggled with for quite a while is the basic fact that I didn't know how to cope. I ran to the bottle instead. Coping is something we re-learn and it takes time. In fact virtually everything takes time. Time is your friend.
So for now please stay safe and I look forward to seeing you back tomorrow. Ready to give it your all. Ready to allow time to heal. Ready to make a rock solid plan to get through days of despair.
