Hi tonisherrell,
Yes i can understand that. I know for me for a number of years the idea of work also meant the idea of having a few after work and for along time those went hand in hand until it just didn't work anymore. Try to play the tape forward and "see" what would happen if you decided to pick up today. Do you think it would be the merriment of the early days of drinking? If you're like me it would be a disaster. Cunning, baffling and powerful. I'm powerless over alcohol. Why not go for a walk or a hike and then treat yourself to your favorite cuisine. Be gentle and patient with yourself. : ) Happy Holidays!
Garrison