I'm only 23 days sober so in a lot of ways my contribution means very little. But I'm not doing the steps either.
Interestingly I Googled the 12 steps last night, to read what each one actually was (just the titles and a brief synopsis of each). I couldn't do the steps because even though you can choose what your Higher Power is - there would be too many people in the room that would pick their HP to be the Lord. My life has been so damaged by loss that I lost all Faith and cannot be around it despite trying/reading/studying very hard.
I guess I could be a deist in later life - I just struggle with theism. But maybe this is slightly veering too far away from AA - if so I apologise.
JT