Here I am... Again... Day 3
So this is my third day 3 post on these forums for the past 5 years.
My last day 3 was back in Oct. That only lasted for about 8 days and I've been drinking on and off, but somewhat controlled, until last Wednesday when I went off on a 3 day black out bender. This one kicked my butt, as with the last one in Oct. Horrible insomnia with the return hypnic jerks keeping me up all night.
My GF's family just arrived here for the holidays, and other than the occasional "hi" and "good night" while I drag my zombified self to and from the bathroom, they haven't seen me. She's disappointed in me and has been telling them I have the flu...
The shame... Guilt is horrible. If I could only get some sleep, I could not be such as rude ahole and participate.
I've been eyeing the clock here, and its an hour until the stores close and I'm seriously thinking of getting a pint, sleeping, to "right myself" and be OK tomorrow. If I try to sleep now, I will jerk, waiting me up, and then I get frustrated and sit back up. Alcohol is horrible stuff.