Congratulations on 34 days!!! You've earned it!!!
Last time, I had 93 days before I relapsed. I had just finished 90 meetings in 90 days(probably more like 120 in 90 days). The first 30 days were a bit uneasy, being in rehab, etc. etc.
At 60 days, I started to feel better.
This time around, I currently have 27 days. Despite all the loss and tragedy in the last 28 days, I have found peace. So I'd say it's already better. Actually, It got better after the first three days. That is because the seed was already planted. I had a little familiarity with the rooms of Narcotics Anonymous, so coming back has been like muscle memory.
I've lost my aunt, my relationship, got diagnosed with atrial fibrillation, and experienced December 13 2017(Cousin was murdered 12/13/16). All in the last 28 days.
I finally understand the true meaning of peace: To be the calm IN the storm. Took me years to get it.