Originally Posted by
2muchpain 
I could easily sit home and drink myself silly and nobody would know. That is my reality.
Because no one cares. Because you have no one in your life. You're alone. Right? That's the tenor of this post and a lot of others. Why are you alone? Read the first line of this thread:
I'm scared to death about commitments.
You fear commitment, but bemoan the fact that no one else wants to commit to being in your life. I believe that is called a conundrum.
Having people in our life requires commitment. Having anything we care about requires commitment, human or animal. Stop putting up barriers to the world. You are keeping out that which you seek.