I hear you. In the past several years drinking has caused me to ignore all the things that used to make me happy. Could that be what you’re getting at? Commitment certainly feels like a massive undertaking for me too. Because of the booze. I’ve decided quitting is probably the only thing that’ll change that. Day 5 now, and we’ll see what happens! Maybe you could try it too! This site is sure helping me. I wish the best for you.