Hard times
Hello. I go by saeulfr. As of today it had been 7months 29 days since my last drink. I've done alright so far but with the holidays here and with my mental health issues I've been struggling. It's hard to get to meetings and when i do it's even harder to say anything as anxiety kicks in. I've been unable to find a sponsor as most of them push the 12 step program (which is a contradictory system to my religion) and Christian beliefs down my throat. This is kinda my last resort before admitting myself to a mental health facility. I can't go back to my routine. I was 2-3 fifths a day of 94proof or higher. Or a bottle of kahula white Russians at a minimum. It was bad enough my friends started calling the liquor store the coffee shop. I just don't know what else to do.