Welcome, Nectarine!
It's been said it isn't how often we drink - but what it does to us when we do. I turned into a completely different person. One drink always led to 10. All my attempts to use willpower to control myself failed. Once it was in my system, anything could happen. Dangerous and reckless behavior ensued. The only way for me to be safe was to stop all together. Being free of it is a wonderful gift. You can do it.