Welcome, AAgain1. Again is the part of your username that applies going forward. No more shame, you are starting Again, you will be yourself Again.
You can do this, and you will be thrilled with the results if you put your sobriety and recovery first. It is great that you dont yet drink every single day. It doesnt mean you dont have a major problem, but it means you are probably fairly safe to stop on your own.
I hope you stay here...read all over SR, post in threads that “speak” to you. You will find much you relate to and TONS of support. These folks gave me courage and vision when I really needed it, and continue to be a primary source of inspiration and comraderie as I find my way.
Again, welcome! You are starting a great thing in your life.