Hey Dropsie! I agree that if I were to start drinking again it would be a quick descent back into total addiction. Those neural pathways would be reactivated and my Beast would be back in control and who knows how long it would be until I'd be able to work up to another quit. That's why like you I've quit forever. I just don't want to go through the rest of my life defined by my past, yes I was addicted to alcohol but I've freed myself. It's finally over. I was an alcoholic, I was my Beast but I'm not anymore. I am a certified Teetotaler today and proud of it!