SSG, alcoholism isnt something that involves stupidity or idiocy. alcoholics are quite intelligent and we can make bad choices. that doesnt make us stupid, just sick.
the hard work isnt ruined- you have learned what works and what doesnt and it reads like the thought of one glass of wine was allowed to live in your head and then acted on.
and now ya learned a new lesson- them thoughts cant be allowed to live in your head.