Yes. Sounds like surrender to me.
The start of your changed perspective and where you really can start to hand things over to your HP and become teachable so those promises can start coming true.
Might feel weird and scary, and I know I hated it at the time, but i look back at that time of surrender as the biggest, best and most important gift I ever recieved.
All the best for your continued recovery and sobriety as you trudge the happy road. Keep posting,
BB
PS. You're not alone. You have the people here, and in AA and most important of all, your HP. Your still small voice. Once our AVs become quieter and less chattering and distracting we can start to pause and listen to that inner voice for direction and strength. Often we find wisdom there where we didn't expect to find any (well, I didn't anyway). Meantime, sounds like you have a supportive sponsor to check any decisions with until you get more confident in anything worrisome.