I might overlap with some stuff you wrote goose but i want to write it anyway.
Great op and thread.
V.
- because it will inevitably end up in the massive night sweats coming back.
- because once you reawaken the demon its harder than ever to put him back to sleep again
- beacuse its a pschological and physical battle, the fact of lifting one drink to your mouth has monumental consqueneces
- because you have been there so often before you should know by now its nuts
- no matter how you feel today, good or bad, drinking will only very temporarily mask it but not resolve anything
- because there are other ways of letting off steam
- because you have people who love you and respect you and believe in you
-the first drink will eventually also be your last one
- when your on deaths door and you realise you lived a life without love not real it will be the biggest and last regret you will ever have
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