I'm not going to BS you guys, I did exactly the same thing last night, I lied and conned my mother out of 200 pounds and proceeded to smoke crack cocaine and inject heroin compulsively till I ran out of every penny. When I was broke I asked my dealer to front me ten pounds worth of crack as I obviously craved more. She refused which is not unusual for her, and the penny clicked, these people don't give a **** about me, they just want what they can get from me and don't care if they leave me with nothing, I have met no sincere friends who are active junkies, as the saying goes, never trust an addict. So, tomorrow I have decided is my first clean date, I will attend NA and CA meetings (not sure which to go for) and find a sponsor and work the steps, if it's the last Damn thing I do. Thanks so much guys for showing me there is a way out this dark miserable pit, much love to you all x