It's me again, I had my bath and am in bed reading, I can't sleep but want to.
I really need some help with my plan guys. Really. I am just terrified by how I am feeling right now and I cannot fail, I do not want to go back there.
It's too late to go out, bars are closed, I have no alcohol in the house, so that was part of my old plan which has worked out for me.
I am so thankful that I pushed through and did something about my job situation, that really helped me today thinking about how much I value this job and do not want to go in hungover. So that worked.
I need to get regular exercise, I can't let that fall by the wayside.
I came on here.
I wrote my sponsor.
I did some AA work/reading.
I had some tea.
I am just feeling so overwhelmed by this and am so scared. I need to work harder, do something else. I can't go back to drinking, I just can't do it.