I love the saying, when in doubt, cut it out.
It can mean so many different things, but in your case, do the party when you feel totally up for it. You will be better, and the party will be better.
You got this, and you are seeing the risk. That is so great.
Don't take the risk, not worth it.
If you feel you cannot cancel, co-host with a friend. A sober friend. If such a thing exists in Italy. I don't have any in Belgium.
Lots of friends I adore, but sober, not so much.
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