I've been trying to quit for 10 years, never to achieve more than 5 months sobriety, which was my longest period just recently, until I slipped again. I know the shame. But the only losers are the ones who don't get back up, dust themselves off and try again. You got this - and you're not alone. It's not easy. One foot in front of the other, we can do this.
Originally Posted by
asixstringnut 
I don’t know what to write here any longer. I have tried to quit and make it stick so many times
I no longer try to keep track. Most recent sober time was 29 days and I drank on December 1.
Now I can’t seem to find the off switch.
I am so ashamed to even post on here anymore. I should be able to do this. But I keep failing.
I am so sick of myself I can’t even describe the shame and disgust I feel for myself.
asixstringnut