I want to give up.
Hey guys. I've changed my name for privacy reasons.
Anyway... I have 184 days without alcohol.
I planned on drinking tonight when I get off work cause I'm off tomorrow. They asked me to come in and I'm still planning on drinking.
I know it's a bad idea but I don't care. I see that I obviously should be working more on my recovery but I don't care.
This is the only place I have for support right now... So here I am reaching out. I don't know why or if it'll help.
Thanks for reading. Back to work I go..