Darlad, I was a SAHM, but thankfully that was long before my drinking days. It can be a very hard job, and isolating at times, but maybe you can make some choices that will help. Does your community have any kind of Drop-In Centre for Moms & kids, maybe at a local community centre? In the community I live in now, I see several groups of Moms getting together for coffee in the mornings, which would be a great support. I depended on Library programs for kids which were a great help for me, even to get a break of half an hour or so.