Originally Posted by
Ghostlight1 
I'm sorry for your loss. I've lost friends in sobriety, but after the initial mourning, and I mean not soon after, I was able to rebound and get back to a regular life.
And by regular, I mean with a hole in my heart and feeling like a piece of me is missing.
I still feel that way after a few years. Their loss changed me, but I remained sober.
My advice would be to take your time and heal. I know how hard that is, but it's nothing picking up a drink will make better.
Best to you and you have my sympathy. You're not alone.
I get mad at him. I get mad that he left me alone. I get mad that he didn’t listen to the advice of the doctors, walk every day for twenty minutes. It will help. Then I realize, there was a time I didn’t listen to doctors and stay sober I didn’t listen to sponsors. He wasn’t a alcoholic. He had to deal with me when I was gone drunk for days. I can’t be mad. I realize today I need to not be angry