I think as logn as you have the support behind you and the willingness to make different choices you'll be ok.
You know that voice is BS when it says you can have just one or that it'll just be one day or it'll be different this time.
You've tried all the combinations, just like the rest of us.
It's not a goer.
If you feel wobbly any time, commit to coming here - and staying here - until the urge passes?
You can do this
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