Hello Pink,
I understand the desperation to quit drugs, I had a problem with cocaine/meth almost 20 years ago. I remember banging my head up against the wall because I wanted a hit so bad.......then I looked in the mirror and saw a person I didn't even recognize. I quit that day, I sent my kids to a friends for 3 days, stocked up on food and non-alcoholic beverages, and locked myself in the house.
It wasn't fun, but after 3 days without the drug, and flushing my system with fluids, I was able to at least function and make better choices. Please stop now, this drug is going to kill you. You can do this!!!
Praying for you....