This may sound silly, but you saying your AV is you is your AV talking to you.
Simply put, your "AV" is anything at all that influences you to drink. Your reasoning or logic, etc. If you stop and ask yourself WHY AM I GOING TO DRINK THIS? before you take that drink and the answer is anything other than, "There is no good reason, don't do it," that is your AV talking.
Here is something to read and ponder:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-big-plan.html (What is a Big Plan)