Thanks for the feedback!
It's hard to describe in words what is intimidating me. The one meeting I went to and had nerves beforehand but they felt like "normal" nerves that I assume anyone would experience prior to their first AA meeting.
What I'm experiencing now is more along the lines of severe anxiety and fear of a full on panic attack. I can't fully understand this given I enjoyed the first meeting. I think I must just have a lot of feelings that have been bought to the surface is the last few weeks.
I feel like I'm focusing a good amount of time each day on sobriety whether it's with reading, therapy, conversations, prayer or coming on here. I just don't know if I should really push it or wait until this intense anxiety subsides a little....