I didn't have these mood swings in recovery the first time I tried to stop, but remember becoming tired and a little apathetic.
This time around, it's becoming a battle. I don't cry too much, but hold it in and want to throw things or work out until I hit complete failure. I'm not working much, so my budget is broke. I almost stopped working the way I just stopped drinking. I realized I don't like my business, and stopped running it. I'll probably get evicted in mid-winter, but i don't care. I deserve it.