What I know is this. I have a major problem and people keep saying, it's simple, just stop. I wish it was that simple and it probably is, but I'm afraid of the withdrawal. What makes it more insane; I am sick daily, yet I continue to do it. It's a habit I need to break. I dont sleep, I can hardly eat, I sweat all night.
My body is rejecting it and I am listening. Thats why I am here. My body has made it loud and clear, I need to stop.
I suppose I should have waited until I was sober before I posted here. Ive been up for three days and feel loopy... I have a dual problem... I suppose that's irrelevant.
My thinking says, make a call, my feeling says, get to bed and stick with your plan.