Hi abby
You're right - it's normal to be scared - it's not easy to change your life and your responses to things - if it was easy no one would need be here.
It's not necessary to hit some 'bottom'...but most of us do - we wait until that point because, I think, we let the fear rule us.
I tried to quit for 15 years.
I was convinced - utterly convinced - this was my life...I'd always be 'a drunk'.
But then I nearly literally died...and I had to try something different, whether I liked it or not.
Support made all the difference for me - and accepting finally that I needed to change my life.
I drank all day every day for about 5 years, excepting days when I was sick or had no money left.
I'm 3 years sober now. My life now is all I used to imagine for myself.
I'm not rich or successful - but I'm happy, and content.
That's still a miracle to me.
It takes a lot of hard work, but it is possible. You're never alone here. We get it.
Don't give up
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