Thread: The Quit Team
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Old 11-16-2017, 05:30 PM
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mm1741
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Join Date: Oct 2015
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I'm in, 100%. I really relate to the ambiguous feeling of not wanting to smoke but not wanting to quit. It's really a terrible place to be in, and a very clear sign that we are addicted. A way I look at it, is that I can continue to smoke as I am and DEFINITELY be miserable, or try sobriety and have a chance at being happy and contented, and the person I was meant to be.

I also saw a totally different person in my relapse, happycampers. And I didn't like him, at all. I'm not sure I was in love with my sober self at the time of my relapse, either, but my sober self can be improved. My using self is, and always will be, an addict, and will never change.
I hope any of that made sense. I feel like my brain is on another planet. Off to bed. I'm glad to be participating here again, and i'm so very grateful for all of you.
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