Hey Teodor. I understand the hanging onto moderation idea. After years of trying to moderate, I accepted the fact that it's all or nothing for me. And so I chose nothing. The idea of never again scared the crap out of me, but it was really for the best.
I like myself a lot better with the choice of nothing than with dealing with the constant fight day in and day out. I feel if you leave that door open of possible use in the future, daily cravings will never stop.
Wishing you the best.