Originally Posted by
wildflower70 
Hi Chloe,
I'm afraid of admitting defeat, I have lied to myself and others and feel worthless. This isn't who I am, I am a kind and loving person...and I find myself apologizing to everyone....for nothing. I can't get out of the hole, and everything now feels like survival.
Defeat just means that plan didn't work. You learned not to try that solution to that problem. It is called learning. So, try something else. It may work or it may not. But at least you tried. Apologize to no one! It is a big waste of time and energy. Let it go and move on with more important things like getting your act together. Be smart! Stop sabotaging your recovery with negative thinking. Don't become your own worst enemy.