Hendrix I get it. We all do. Thing is though you're NOT a hopeless case. There is always hope. Is there something you can commit to? By that I mean tomorrow. Do a day. Just 1 day. Commit right now. Please.
Could you bear to have your last sip and get the rest of the booze out of your home tonight?
Could you take a few days off work and focus on one sober day, then another then another......?
Could you get to see your GP?
Could you tell your partner or children or mum or dad or brother or sister? Ask someone to come sit with you for a while?
Could you post here every hour, half hour, 10 minutes.......whatever it takes to reach out and get some support?
Please don't delay and by the way you can 100% do this!
Sending you support tonight take care xxx