Hi and welcome
Not a Dr have no idea what the answers to your questions are, but won't find many votes here for continuing to drink.
It looks like it's knocked you around a lot even dangerously so...common sense dictates that you can expect at least more of the same if not worse if you keep drinking.
...why not give sobriety a go?
Sobriety's not sad for me...my drinking life was the sad existence.
Is that not the same for you?
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