Mold Sensitivies/Infoamnation anyone?
Each apartment I move to has water damage and mold in it. And I get very, very sick. Right now my stomach is so swollen I look pregnant. My fingers are swollen and my knuckles are painful. I had a very very traumatic experience seven years ago that changed my body and my family at that time rejected me. I am basically alone.
I don't know if this is about loneliness or shame or rejection or abandonment or just the plain old trauma my brain endured. Speak up for a very long time and tell everybody what happens. Not that a lot of people don't already know, but I still feel I have to say what was done to me and name certain people.
Coffee and cigarettes to stuff my feelings and numb out. I am extremely angry hurt and sad, and I have a lot of great grieving to do and losses to process. It will be almost humanly impossible and I am afraid of feeling my feelings.
Does anybody be late to this and if so do you have any instinctive thoughts about what could be causing this or how to heal .