Tob,
Welcome aboard.
Imo....Wanting to quit is half the battle won.
I'm ultra clean for nearly 30 months and I still suffer the effects of my booze addiction daily.
I quit once, at 28, for 8 months. It was so easy, I started drinking again. Big mistake.
I take no meds except some vits and I still crave sometimes.
I work out 4 to 6 days a week. That is my new drug.
I attend a few AA meetings to see my siblings in sobriety f2f periodically. But, I am not a 12 stepper. It sort of freaks me out. But, many of my virtual friends here are 12 steppers and I cherish their input.
The brain damage is real. The addiction is for life. Drugs alter dopemin production and that is why we crave them. That quick brain numbing euphoria.
It is living in a fantasy world. It is pathetic and sad. It is science.
My self study about addiction, courtesy of the Internet (SR), has saved my life so far.
I am not a one day at a time person, unless I need to be some days.
I am a non drinker. I don't do drugs.
I was overdosing on coffee and sodium filled foods during my active addiction and since quitting. I recently stoped coffee and am watching my sodium intake and I feel like a new man...on top of being squeeky clean.
Hope this helps you.
Thanks.