Hi Serenity
however much I didn't want to be an alcoholic or however much I wish I'd had a do over on events, I had to accept things the way they were.
Use this time, work on yourself. Rid yourself of the monkey on your back.
Rediscover the real you
Once thats done - then you can start at building a new life and perhaps mending some fences. Action always speaks louder than words, or intentions.
Be the change you want to be
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