Starting Over
I had put several weeks of sobriety together, and I was feeling awesome. And then disaster struck. As some on here may know, I had been having some marital problems. It came to a head about a week and a half ago. My wife told me she wanted a divorce.
I came apart. Instantly went on a binge. And it set in motion about 10 days of hard drinking. At first it was to numb the pain, and then it was to lessen the anxiety, and stop handshaking.
But I refuse to go back to who I was. And my wife has reconsidered, still loves me and wants to make it work (she didn’t see my drinking as I was in a hotel, giving her some space). It was not justifiable to relapse under any circumstances.
So I am back to Day One.