I really wanted to drink and not have any bad consequences.
Sounds ridiculous when you type it out, but there it is.
I think you can either chose sobriety or have it thrust upon you like I did nearly dying etc.
The first way must be preferable press.
I had lots of negative experiences to draw on to help me choose not to drink. I'm sure you do too.
Choose Life as they used to say back in the day.
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