Very sorry to hear that Darth. There are a lot of things in life we cannot control that cause us a lot of sorrow and pain. Remember that your mother also has you - and your choice to stay sober may not take away the other pain, but it's a blessing to you and her. Not sure if you have a close relationship with her or not, but offering your support for her at this time might help a little. Glad you came here to share and ask for support.