Hi, Freshstart. Just a couple of things/thoughts, and thank you for your message.
1. Like you, I think this is something I have to do on my own; noboby can help me but ME! I have to want it, not AA, or family, or friends...ME!
2. Yes, of course I have plans, even just A plan. But first I have to kick this ugly monster called alcohol out of my life. Financially I'm up s... creek. And my personal life is shot, gone.
I never want to be back to where I was five years or more before now; I want to be someone completely different; happy with others, and happy just with myself.
But right now, it is only day 17, and I'm hanging in there. At least it's already much easier than the first few days, although - God knows - I've been here/there before.