Just came from lawyer's office. The court part sounds like it may be ok - I already spent a night in jail, DMV - I will have to have an ignition interlock system for almost a year if all goes ok. Otherwise I have to go to some classes - not sure about how many yet, left a message with the center. And this isn't set in stone yet but what the lawyer said would probably happen. I am terrified if it happens to be in the newspaper, I will lose my job. I am ... I don't know how I am. It all seems like it is not real and then in the next minute I am having panic attacks. I had finally got to a better place in my life and blew it.