Originally Posted by
LastDrop 
And theres a low level war going on inside me.
One side is saying I will never drink again and I will never change my mind.
The other is saying you will never make it. You can drink only when you go to the in laws. You can just keep it to beer. Whats the point anyhow what are you trying to prove....
The war will end when you choose that first side -- the real you, that wants to be sober. When you choose that side, you can begin to view that other side as "not you" ... you can become disconnected from those thoughts of drinking. You may still hear them, but you can learn to perceive them as not really "your" thoughts -- just the dying thoughts of your addiction, which can be automatically dismissed without debate. Once you learn this trick, the thoughts lose all their (illusory) power.