Thanks Dee I know you are right.
Weekend went by superfast. I am at work eating breakfast now. I feel real weird. Like so so sober ... everything is 100% real now.
And theres a low level war going on inside me.
One side is saying I will never drink again and I will never change my mind.
The other is saying you will never make it. You can drink only when you go to the in laws. You can just keep it to beer. Whats the point anyhow what are you trying to prove....
I am so tired of my self sabotage. And so used to it its second nature.
I will not drink today.