Hey iamme! Wow, your post spoke volumes to me. I am one who drinks from morning to night. Wake up, rinse and repeat. It's a scary thing. My body would run it's course, and I would wake up hating that I dug myself in a hole. It can get better though! Def goto the doctor. I'm in Maryland, and I was very fortunate. I went to the ER and I requested to do a at-home detox, and they let me. I can't speak for all ER's......but it is possible to stop this crazy merry-go-round that feels like it never is going to stop. If you can find the strength to get the first part done, it will get so much better! My favorite part is getting a full night sleep! I would wake up in the middle of the night, have to take a few swigs because I would be shaking so bad. Def not how I wanted to live my life, and you def deserve so much better! You're around great people here, and we are all supporting you.