Originally Posted by
LastDrop 
It always comes back to this for me too. I kept convincing myself that I can drink and get away with it but in my heart I know the truth.
If I stay sober then I wont have to try and get sober again. But it is difficult since I have not been sober the majority of my life. At this point I just gotta try to make it to bed tonight sober.
I can deal with tomorrow when it gets here.
That’s exactly how I feel right now.
I hate blackouts. I hate knowing I messed up.